Live like a recovering alcoholic
collecting coins for the days where the future does not exist, nor past.
You are still here.
Once during a session, my whole world came undone.
You are not meant to be no-one, no-where, and no-thing.
Keep the world on ‘Do not disturb’
Do not despair when it stays quiet.
You asked it to.
No, not teas, meats, words or algorithms.
Feed yourself your own time.
Lift heavy things,
build the muscle, so you may bear
the weight of all things terrifying.
Pinch, slap, jump
Do the work to un-numb.
Wash your shoes,
the ones under the stairs
always leaving trails of sludge from the outside.
Call customer service to fix the washer
that leaves all your clothes soaked in saltwater.
Practice, drawing infinity in the air,
The time is almost here.
Write to your future self
It’s finally safe to dream.